Unchanged reality

2009-Aug-03, Monday 11:05 pm
avron: (Bald)
Once again I'm up later than I 'should' be before going to work in the morning (yes I'm going to work again after another week off). Back while I was at Polytech it seemed that I needed nearly 9 hours of sleep a night to feel properly refreshed and even if that has decreased in the intervening years it won't have reached the point of me only needing 6 hours yet. The fact that I have (for almost as long as I remember) been a 'night person' and disinclined to rise early make the hours I choose to work bizarre. But choose them I have and so I'm getting up at 5am tomorrow. And I'll be sustaining energy levels through the judicious use of cupcakes.

With the relocation of small group meetings that started a couple of months back I haven't been calling my mother (and father when he was home) as often as I had been. With the increased distance (and initial uncertainty about location) I have been getting a ride each time and so don't really have the ability to call as I walk any more. I had been going to walk tonight, but we all aimed to arrive early to surprise someone and so I got a ride again instead. Maybe I will call tomorrow night, if I don't lose track of time to the extent that I only just realise when Top Gear is starting.

Recent socialising has led to an evening where I was wondering about whether I'd crossed lines in a relationship, nothing was said and I didn't notice any behavioural changes but I still wondered about it. Being unsure of where exactly I stand with the individual doesn't help. Nor does not knowing where I want things to be. I know the best thing would be to simply ask but the implications if I have completely misread the situation could make things even more uncomfortable, and not just for me.

It's happened again

2009-Jun-06, Saturday 06:03 pm
avron: (1981)
Once again some of my friends have come to the conclusion that I am interested in a romantic relationship with one of my friends. I presume that these friends also think that she would be interested in a relationship with me although that wasn't as clearly specified. (It is different friends doing the supposing this time though). Considering the two of us this seems like the least likely pairing (bar one) to actually happen of all those that have previously been put forth. Why I'd be interested is fairly obvious, why she would be is less easy to see.

Monday night I went out to my church small group, and once again said less than I felt I should have looking back on it. I don't know what more I would have said but I almost always feel as though I've said nothing of consequence. Just sitting there for most of the hour and answering a couple of yes/no type questions doesn't seem worthwhile.

I was intending to be helping with Mainly Music Wednesday morning, instead of doing so I ended up not getting up until about halfway through the session and would likely have arrived as the others were cleaning up if I had gone immediately after eating breakfast. Instead, I spent more time at my PC than is normal for mornings with plans and then headed to the nearby mall. The upstairs is much like I would have expected if I'd given any thought to it. The new Dick Smith however seems huge, and has a number of things I would like to be able to buy without regret.
The evening was more games, yet again I played Dominion a number of times, as well as Nordic TtR at the beginning of the night. I don't know how long I'm going to enjoy Dominion, but the sheer multitude of card combinations will likely keep it interesting to me. Having the scores remain close in each game should also keep interest even if the actual scores vary wildly.

Thursday and Friday were not work days for me, although I hadn't realised that about Thursday so I spent nearly an hour walking in the cold. I have spent much of the time over the past couple of days playing Facebook games, and a small amount of time clearing up the file names of old podcasts I have copies of. I want them to be easily sortable by recording date even when that information has been lost from the file (or was never present). Of the more than 25 days of gaming related podcasts I have downloaded over the years (discounting the Dice Tower as I haven't yet sorted the two folders I have of it) I have listened to about 5 days worth I think. Even if I do continue to listen to it most of my time at home it's going to be quite a while before I've caught up again.

Now, I'm just waiting until it makes sense to go wait at the bus stop because I'm not wanting to walk all the way to poker this evening. Mainly because of the onset of winter type conditions, also because it is now dark earlier than it was when I walked the other times.

Change is continuing

2009-Apr-06, Monday 06:05 pm
avron: (hanging)
I have had six days off work in a row (10 counting weekends), thankfully that ends tomorrow although I'm not looking forward to the getting up early and walking in the cold (ETA 2315 Or not, while I was out getting SubWay there was a call to say one of the machines was behind so I don't have work.). Even with half of those days being my choosing to not work, it seems that there is a definite slow down at work and I'm going to be much better off working whenever I get the chance to do so.

Monday night I went to R18 again and, like has been the case for quite some time, I spent a lot of the time distracted by the baby/toddler. For the most part the group seems constant, which is probably a good thing as being used to and knowing the others there is going to mean each of us is more open. And I might start contributing more than just when I'm asked questions.

Tuesday and Thursday nights I went and played games with Steve, three games of Stone Age each night and it seems obvious that when the two of us play whoever has the first move in the game is going to win. I haven't played enough (especially recently) with more than two to have noticed a similar tendency. If there is such a tendency though I think it's going to sour me on the game.

Wednesday morning I went and helped with Mainly Music again, for some reason I tend to be a focus of attention for a few of the children, I'm getting used to having them come over to me and offer toys.
Games for the evening were cancelled (not an April Fools thing like I wondered initially) and so I was free to head to church and attend the Prayer and Praise meeting. I'm not likely to go back to them, especially at the expense of playing games.

Friday I got up early (for a day off) and caught a bus to the Beach, where I walked out on the pier and took photographs. In between getting those loaded onto my laptop and continuing to clear out some of the mess that I'd accumulated over the prior months/year I also made a start at getting my desktop PC working properly again (I had been unable to access the internet). As the cooling fan of my laptop no longer operational I'm unable to use it for more than an hour at a stretch. With me having recently uninstalled almost all the "essential" security programs as I wasn't intending to use the desktop for anything but data storage and games I wanted to get XP SP3 installed and had trouble due to prerequisites. Once the evening got nearer I headed to church again and spent a couple of hours helping children with their craft evening.

After I got up on Saturday I continued to make inroads on the mess that is my room and proceeded to actually get stuff installed on this computer. Shortly after 6 I headed to the Dux de Lux for the first time (in the evening anyway, NaNoWriMo TGIO get-togethers have previously been held there in the afternoons) and have decided I am unlikely to go back, the "music" was far too loud in my opinion. Not knowing anyone else of the organisers friends probably didn't help at all either.

Yesterday morning I spent some time in the local park as children hunted for rocks, and distracted one nearly 2 year old by pushing her on a swing while her grandfather was was minding the older kids. I also discovered that I"m no longer able to hang from my feet the way I used to. Or, at the very least, will require practise to become good at it again.
The afternoon saw me catching up with three friends I hadn't seen for a long time, a couple that went to Auckland when they got married a couple of years back, and another guy I probably hadn't seen since we left High School. If not for the coincidental timing I'd have been able to play Wii games as well. Facebook has been very good in getting me in contact with people again, not that I'm actually doing much in the way of talking to others in any way.
avron: (cartoon)

Monday at work I started where I now prefer to be, but after an hour or so was shifted to the machine I'd rather have nothing to do with as the boss wanted someone competent at the end. The job being one of the heavy magazines just made things that little bit worse. It wasn't actually a bad day all up, I'd just rather work elsewhere, for someone else, although it's a lot better than it used to be.
With the weather nice enough to do so I spent a portion of the afternoon sitting in the doorway at the back of this flat reading "Treasure Island" which was one of the 7 books I got cheap three weeks ago.
R18 in the evening was more talking about random things, getting distracted by the baby in the room and then getting more serious for a while. Instead of keeping a completely separate journal about that stuff the way suggestions went I'm considering a weekly post here about things. Probably friends-locked at the very least.

Tuesday night I was supposed to be bowling but when nobody had showed up by nearly 1830 I decided to just head home again. On the way I called my father as he'd been trying to ring on Monday and I was only noticing just before he hung up each time. Talking with my parents eased the anger/hurt of people not showing although the reason for him trying to call was far from good. I'm pleased that my relationship with my parents is no longer simply a parent/child relationship. I wouldn't go so far as to say I'm anywhere near counting them as friends as a lot of people seem to but it's changed in the past few years especially.
Once I got home I started watching Mutant X DVDs for the first time in about 4 years. Having thought a month or so ago that they'd be on the list to sell when I get around to purging my collections I'm now not so sure.

Wednesday I got up kind of late and after wasting a little time online with email, LJ, Facebook etc. I went along to Church and helped with the Mainly Music program that is run each Wednesday morning. After about 90 minutes surrounded by very young children (and a fair few mothers/caregivers) I was no longer feeling so down about the night before and managed to spend most of the afternoon in a fairly relaxed state watching more Mutant X.
Games in the evening was good for me, thanks to it being my birthday I was able to choose games to play. If I hadn't been drinking alcohol throughout the evening I might even have managed to do well in the second and third games I played. Because the alcohol hadn't yet managed to affect me and I was the player with the unwanted share the score for Manila was not even close but in the other two games I was obviously last (Galaxy Trucker) or not really in contention from half-way through (Medici)

Thursday I got up late again, watched the last of the Mutant X DVDs and then watched Contact for the first time since I saw it more than 6? years ago. Steve wanted to play games again (having sort of arranged such on Monday night) and so I went out and played 3 games of Stone Age, doing much better than I had the previous week. Starvation doesn't seem to work all that well in a 2-player game, at least compared to the 4-player game I previously tried it in.

Today (Friday) I went back to work and managed to spend most of it just putting bundles of NWCBs on the table so they could be cut with the Guillotine. It seems I'll be finding somewhere else to spend my lunch breaks from now on as well, there's a sign on the dispatch office door basically saying keep out unless you have business there. I had been in the habit of going in and sitting in one of the comfortable chairs while I ate whatever food I had left by that stage of the morning.

avron: (initial)

R18 has dwindled even more it would seem, last Monday there was only 6 of us there apart from the host. Having a significant change in the age of those involved is probably a big part of the change, as will the new families. It does make me wonder about the wisdom of heading back to SBC on Sunday nights again, even with most of those I knew there having gone elsewhere now.

Last Thursday afternoon I went to a hairdresser for only the second time in more than 10 years (the first was Tuesday when I made the appointment) and spent nearly $90. It's a good thing I don't bore easily, without being really able to wear my glasses while things were happening I ended up spending more than an hour just sitting in a chair waiting for the bleach, and then the dye, to have the desired effect. With me intending to take part in FunRazor again this year I decided to do something quite unusual and get my hair dyed. It is now a very obvious purple colour. Reactions have been varied from those that have seen it so far, one woman and work seemed to almost fall over and at least one person has looked at it then gone right back to what he was doing. I'm glad I didn't get it done red like I'd considered as next most likely after blue, even knowing it was going to come out in the shower I think I'd have been a little worried at the sheer amount.

Friday afternoon saw the PM visiting my place of employment, something that had made me consider taking the day off. (With me having had many short weeks recently I decided against extra time off though.) Having no desire to speak to her I attempted to 'hide away' a little and apart from a couple of hellos there was no communication between her and myself. It would also seem I wasn't the only one that didn't want to speak to her (or be filmed?) as the guillotine operator disappeared shortly before the entourage arrived in our part of the factory and returned not long after they headed off.

During the majority of the service on Sunday morning I was wearing a hoodie and sunhat to keep my head covered. I figured that me spending time with the children would prove less distracting if I wasn't to let them see my hair while they should have been paying attention to the leaders. After things finished however I removed the hat and hoodie and went out into the foyer where I started getting noticed. I only heard one person say that they didn't like it but there could well have been others.

I have recently spent about 40 hours with my immediate family, most of it at my parents house doing nothing of consequence. Neither of my parents noticed my new hair colour immediately, understandable considering how dark it is at our front door. Dad seemed to take it in stride, Mum was still getting used to it when I returned to the city. Thanks to Facebook my sister had been close in her assumption about what I'd been intending to do, although she'd thought it might be blonde.
One of the few discussions that occurred centred on my recent (recurring?) depressive state and how it could be a lack of Serotonin that causes (or at least contributes to) the way I feel. That gives me another reason to sleep more and leave the house for more than just games, church and work. At the very least I should start reading after work, while I sit out in the sun.

Must check keys

2008-Oct-03, Friday 10:48 pm
avron: (Default)

Last night I went out to buy bread, and ended up with a fair amount of junkfood as well. Unfortunately I had left my keys on the table in the lounge after arriving home late on Wednesday night. With my flatmate not yet home from work I was thinking I might be stuck outside for quite some time and tried to ring my sister seeing as I'd been forgetting at convenient times for at least a week. I got an answering machine message though which wasn't really surprising. Luckily I didn't end up locked out much longer, my flatmate arrived back reasonably soon after I did.

My week away from the angry lady at work ended with me back at that machine but I'm happy with the way things went compared to past weeks. I basically spent a day at each of the main machines, with Tuesday actually split between a couple. The actual work is usually better at the machine I'm not wanting to be at now, especially with her operating and the machine stopping more than it used to. Being closer to most of the rest of the staff felt a little odd as well, I've become very used to being away from most of the other workers.

Monday's R18 meeting ended up being a lot of general talking and only a little of the Biblical "stuff" that we normally expect. I also got to hold a baby for a while and tried feeding her for a little while. My hair has grown long enough to get in my eyes when I shake my head now so I'm not going to be entertaining her that way quite as often.

Tuesdays' get together for the Children's Church helpers was good, I didn't eat but I did stay the entire time which I'd thought might not happen. The piano player in the center of the dining area was playing a mixture of Church songs (that actually take a while to register when it's just piano) and music from the 70s or so. I barely remember any of what was discussed, most of it not really being anything to do with me as I'm not involved in the Youth Group stuff that most of the others present are.

Gaming was good on Wednesday night, I played Puerto Rico again and had what has to be the closest game I've ever been a part of that didn't actually end as a draw. Both myself and one of my opponents had the same number of victory points, tie breaker is money and we each had a single coin, second tie breaker is number of goods and I had one more than him. The second game I played ended up true to form, playing Agricola with the occupation and minor improvement cards means I'm going to lose. I will continue to play at least some of the time I have the option to do so but I think I'm going to prefer other games most nights.

Tomorrow I'll be spending at least a couple of hours with my parents. I've asked them to come up to cart me up to Bishopdale for eDay which will mean I finally have no pile of monitors under the table in the lounge, or an old tower PC in my wardrobe. They'll also be bringing up Tantrix, which I'll probably spend a while playing with tomorrow evening and then forget about until next Wednesday (or the big Game Weekend).

avron: (Survive)

Most of the night is fine (tonight I got to watch two hours of Doctor Who after all) but add one piece of information that I'd rather not have found and I'm depressed again. I wonder what it says when this could be the first time I'm admitting to a number of people without prevarication that I'm depressed.

I had a really good day yesterday, playing games with a friend and watching a DVD. All up it was about 5 hours (most of it away from this house), just enjoying time with a friend and not worried about anything besides that which I'm always concerned about. Today I helped with the Children's Church stuff again (I think I missed one week of the term after intending to take the whole term off) and after talking with the temporarily returned couple went for a walk. I now know it will take me about 40 minutes to walk from church to the Arts Centre after services in November if the NaNo meetings end up occurring there the way they did the past three years. (I still don't have a clue what I'll be writing about this year.)

Apart from work, which could be better than it has been if I'm working somewhere abnormal, tomorrow should be very good as well. R18 is having a pot-luck, presumably partly in 'honour' of the couple I talked with after church today.
Tuesday I've agreed to go out in the evening to a restaurant, and I'm not expected to eat so I won't have to explain why I'm not hungry. Or at least not to everyone.
Wednesday I'll be playing games again (I presume) and will get to relax almost as much as I ever do.

I won't be surprised to end up only working three days again this week, if the depressive state does hold (or if I do end up still working for the woman I don't want to work for) I will be taking Friday off again.

Did I leave an option off the poll in my last entry? Should I have had an option for "Don't you dare, you'll look like a complete plonker."

Time alone, and not.

2008-Sep-08, Monday 06:28 pm
avron: (long hair)

I managed a full (for me) week of work last week, spending most of my time at the normal machine and apparently the operator thinks that I and others are lazy because we don't do certain things that I think she should be doing. The machine was stopping enough on Friday that I managed to read most of the Six Pack Three which I'd purchased on Thursday during my walk. The rest of time I was not needing to work through the week I managed to fill in time with magazine reading, or 'harassing' the ex-forklift driver.

My Wednesday night game session was a little empty due to people waiting around between games as we had three tables and wanted to mix up who was playing with who. Game one for me was Princes of Florence with 4 instead of the 3 I was used to and it did change the auction noticeably. I managed to plan a little better as far as money left at the end was concerned but still came in third, between the two new people. Game two was a four player game of the family version of Agricola, almost completely at my instigation, a decision I regretted come the end of the game. The other three were within 4 points of each other, I was 7 behind third.

Unexpected time away )

With work having been as dull as it's been recently I decided I didn't want to be there on an anniversary I'd rather not be dealing with. Because of that I have taken today and tomorrow off and had been expecting to spend both days completely alone apart from R18 in about an hour. Now I'm thinking I might head to the Church lunch tomorrow and then go bowling afterwards.

avron: (hanging)
My sleep schedule has been mixed up this week. I arrived home at about 1am both Tuesday and Thursday mornings, getting four hours sleep before work on Tuesday and sleeping 12 hours before waking up today because I had no alarm set. The rest of the week has been more normal, just under six hours before a shift at work and about seven before church.

Four nights over a span of eight just been I got to play board games, leading to 11 different games being played 16 times, at three different locations. Mostly with different people at each place as well. I would like more weeks like this one just been but it's not likely to happen very often. I might get to play at the new location monthly, that's how often I gather they play there but at least for the next occasion I won't be going unless I get taken across like I was this time. As to the 'old' location, I may simply need to find out what nights tend to be good for the host there and other see what other people would be interested.

I think I'll be getting a credit card in the next couple of weeks, I want to be able to spend up large in Australia next month without needing to withdraw a lot of cash before I go. I don't think there will be much I want to buy at any point, unless I find new games at the same store I found "Wits and Wagers" at last year. It will also be good for me to be able to pay for some of the stuff so that my friend that has done a lot of the paying already won't need to.

Sunday night was going to be dessert and games (movie for the ladies) but with the lack of interest we all ended up just watching "Message in a Bottle" which was the second Kevin Costner movie I've seen in the past couple of years, both of which ended similarly. R18 social things have greatly diminished in attendees since people shifted away and others started having children. Good for them I suppose but not good for my meagre social life.
Because I was first to show up, which has become standard, I spent a little while talking to the lady that hosts gatherings there. The normal topic of conversation between her and I over the past 3-4 years has been my job status, more recently it changed to romance and the lack of it in my life. Having considered issues of that nature recently I was able to point out to her that the only single, Christian women I know at the moment are either only just out of high school or not interested in me as more than a friend. She also asked about my ex and whether things were truly over there. Even discounting the facts of why we split and it now being a year since I had any communication with my ex, her dating someone new puts things definitively in the realm of not going to happen.

Intentions for ten-pin bowling again this coming Tuesday are looking pointless now. I've not got around to asking most of those I'd intended to and the one person I did specifically ask may be still injured from car/scooter incidents.
avron: (red face)
We have a new flatmate, or will on Monday anyway. The previous flatmate left about a month ago and it took a while for other people to be interested in this flat. I will probably be at work when he shifts in so won't be able to help. I don't even remember his name but I figure it took about a month before I could remember the previous flatmates name so anything less than that is going to be fine. He said he wasn't a party person during the very short conversation I was privy to so that's a very good sign in my opinion, I'm not likely to have my already limited sleep interrupted by him.

I spent about three hours this afternoon with a friend, mainly walking around Hagley park and the area between it and Cathedral Square. We talked about random things which was nice and allowed me to think about a few things with someone else to provide feedback on them. I also picked up another puzzle book, this one will actually fit in a pocket, unlike the book I had with me at the church camp which is around A4 sized. After we'd finished walking around I was invited to go watch DVDs but declined, I'm still not entirely sure why although I expect there was a sub-concious desire to avoid lots of people contact when I'm going to be surrounded tomorrow morning. Having to catch a bus there and then another back here later on may have also been part of it.

Armageddon Pulp Expo tomorrow, I may be seeing more people I know this year, I may even be going over with someone. During the week just been I met one of the artists that's going to be at the Expo, I just didn't have a clue who he was until after he'd left where we were. I don't know if I'll bother buying any games this year, many of those that I'm aware of and wanting are probably too old to be available there. On the other hand, there's at least a chance that a handful are new enough that they might be available.

I didn't see as much of sister and brother-in-law as I would have liked while they were in the area, mainly because I decided not to head to our parents place when they first arrived. I did get to see them and a few others I've seen almost nothing of over the past year on both Saturday and Sunday afternoons though. We got taken out for lunch after church and I ate most of the dessert I got instead of a proper meal. What I manage to eat any time I go out doesn't seem to follow any pattern. I also failed to catch up with mutual friends that just recently became parents, I expect because the meeting happened on Monday but I never got informed that it was happening.
Monday night was the R18 meeting, slightly better attended than has become normal, mainly because of the couple that's back in the city for the school holidays. We (some of us anyway) also stuck around talking until almost 2230 which meant I basically had time to come home and go to bed, I don't think I bothered going online that evening.
avron: (NaNoWriMo 2007)
I've recently got home from a quiz night at my church, a quiz that my team won. My team was one friend from Spreydon and the two leaders from R18 (as well as myself of course) and I don't think any of us were expecting to win, or even come close. As it is we were 1/2 a point in the lead at the very end and after only getting 3 points in the last round we were all thinking that we'd dropped considerably. The mid stage ranking had us in the top three (I can't remember where) and one of the other two teams ahead half way through was the one that we only just beat.

There was another NaNoWriMo meeting this afternoon, attended by about half a dozen not including me. I was about as far through (about 10,000 words instead of around 18,333) as two of the others there with the others noticeably further ahead, even AJ is well ahead of me (even after spending the first eight days in Australia and not writing). I have been thinking that I'll be fine as my last two years had similar starts but I haven't actually compared them properly to know for sure, I think I'll try working that out tomorrow. Before the meeting I stopped in at Whitcoulls to have a look at books and DVDs, $40 later I came out with a book, the first season of SeaQuest DSV and the animated TransFormers movie. After the meeting I ended up buy fudge as I was leaving the Arts Center and then CD-Rs and a couple of singlets at the Warehouse. I think that spending nearly $100 instead of maybe $5 for food indicates I need to be a little more thrifty.

Friday night I went out to the goodbye gathering for [livejournal.com profile] the_legionnaire. At which I saw a few people I have barely seen since meeting them the first time, almost rode a unicycle, juggled a little and spent far too long just sitting on a chair at the side of the room. I did get to say goodbye to a friend that is going to be leaving Christchurch very soon though so I'm quite happy about that. I was also away from my flat between roughly 1915 and 0215 which left me thinking I really should get myself some sort of motorised transport instead of just walking everywhere.

After last weekends NaNo meeting I came home and watched half of TransFormers (the recent movie) before deciding I was too tired and feeling too ill to pay attention. Going to bed at 1830 is something I can't recall doing any time in recent history. Even with waking up again about 1900 and watching a little more before again deciding I really should be in bed I managed to sleep for about 12 hours total. Having last Monday off because of how I felt means I'll have four weeks in a row with only four days of work. Two of those weeks involve(d) stat holidays though so my pay is less affected than it might have otherwise been.
Monday evening, after my day away from work, R18 started early so that we could light fireworks. I was the only guy that stayed inside while they were being lit.
avron: (dooky)
Monday I had the day off work after arranging such on Friday afternoon because I was going out at Spreydon on Sunday night. After being woken up by the installation of the new oven around 8am I spent a while in front of my PC as is my wont. By about 10 I was ready to do something else and started moving things. My drawers got piled in the lounge, followed by the frame and then my table was cleared off and shifted into the lounge as well. Vacuuming and other cleaning followed before I started putting things back where they hadn't been before. Along with the shift of stuff about 3-4 months ago I have shifted furniture twice since I shifted in here 9 months ago and now nothing is where I initially put it.
R18 started up again on Monday evening after the hosts had been away for about a month on a cruise. It seems that the group has settled at about 8 which is okay, but still seems small compared to how things were when I started. After that finished I stayed and tried to work out the cryptic crossword clues that were being puzzled through by a couple of others and watched "Flight of the Conchords" with the entire household.

Yesterday I went back to work. The machine I like working at had been shifted over the weekend/Monday morning (another factor in me taking Monday off) so working at that machine was a little odd yesterday. It is being replaced over the next couple of months and the new machine will apparently require half as many staff which means I'm likely to be assigned elsewhere far more often once it is all set up.
Last night I went out for dinner and games, leaving me far less time to do things here at my PC than I normally get which was a little odd again. After getting out I spent a little while waiting for food, which I actually ate (indicating an improvement in one area of my life), and then once the meal was over waited for opponents to show up. Cities and Knights was requested so I went and got those while the other two already present worked through another cryptic crossword. When the fourth member of the nights group arrived I started setting up the board and trying to explain to him how it differed from the base game. Once again I managed to unintentionally cause problems for someone with my placements and building, I don't ever intend to be particularly difficult but seem to manage it in most games. Partly due to the new player, partly due to the evenness of the game (scores were 10, 10, 10, 9 at one point) and partly due to one individual consistently asking questions about whose turn it was and other such things it ended up taking us almost 3 hours to finish instead of the 2 hours I'd been expecting, as such I wasn't home until after I'd hoped to get to bed.

I almost fell asleep at lunchtime today thanks (in part) to being out as late as I was so I might have an earlier night tonight. That is, however, dependant on how early I get home from the discussion I'm going to. The Children's Church leader has decided to look into holding a Halloween night gathering for the local children as an alternative to them going trick or treating. As a (former?) part of the Children's Ministry at my church I've been invited along.

Tomorrow night I'm hoping to watch more Quantum Leap with at least one of those that I started watching it with almost three weeks ago. If that doesn't happen I think there's a good chance I'll watch season 2 of Yes Minister.

From Sunday morning I will no longer be helping with the Children's ministry and will instead be staying in the main service after spending almost all year leaving with the children as they go out to their program and missing the main sermon.
avron: (1981)
Wil Wheaton posted on his blog today about DailyLit, where it's possible to set things up so that you get sent regular email with subsequent portions of books you would like to read. Of course, almost everything there is quite old, otherwise it would involve infringement of copywrite laws. Once I'm done with Pride and Prejudice I think I might arrange to haveWar of the Worlds and The Time Machine by H. G. Wells emailed to me. I am however, more likely to just go to wherever they are at the website and read them in two or three sessions instead of over the weeks the email option could lead to.

The banner did get made on Friday night. It took about an hour with only three of us there so it wasn't complicated. And though I did mention my new game I wasn't enthusiastic in suggesting it (not surprising really) and I don't think either of the other two really would have paid much attention.

I should have watched Casablanca on Sunday night, it would have been one of the movies off the IMDB top 250 (101_in_1001 item 90). After a few of us from R18 went to the Casino for $5 steak (only possible with a "players card"?) we headed back to the R18 leaders home with the intention of watching a DVD. It took a while before we sat down to watch it thanks to us talking some more and the inertia that tends to be present in our gatherings. About ten minutes in (maybe not even that) we paused it to get dessert and upon returning watched some of Top Gear. During that Steve seemed to be trying to arrange a game night for the week ahead and I indicated I'd probably be able to play whatever night he wanted. He then went and got the Catan boxes and I decided that I would rather play then than watch the DVD. We ended up having our first 5 player game of Cities & Knights for around a year or so I think, leaving only three people watching the DVD.

Tomorrow I should finish my first 40 hour week of work since getting back from Hillsong, the second since I was employed by PMP itself and only the third I'll have done for the year. (Although the first week after being employed by PMP was only 3 hours short because I wanted to attend a funeral.) Therefore I'm going to be 1/4 done with goal 75 unless I get sent home early. I've begun to think I might be well advised to alter the goal though, as I have no guarantee of five days of work in any given week. Maybe make it three months working every day there is work available?

meme )

Needing to move on.

2007-Jul-26, Thursday 11:57 pm
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I need to put my past behind me. Not forget the mistakes I made but stop focusing on them so much. I think I have thought more about the past than I have about the future since I started High School, if not from then it's been from even further back. In that vein, I've heard it said that "Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans" and wonder if my lack of any planning could be an argument for why I don't really have a life.

I should have gone to my parents place yesterday with my father as he was heading home. I didn't have work today and don't tomorrow either, a perfect opportunity to go visit and then return to the city without missing out on work. What's worse is I'd been thinking about it a week or so ago, but because I'm trying to not turn down any work didn't ask for any extra days off. The possibility only occurred to me this afternoon, about 24 hours late.

It would seem that my new 'obsession' is Facebook applications. I've spent much of the past three hours adding new ones to my profile and adding information to those that I've added. With the time I spent earlier in the day similarly occupied it's not surprising that the only real cleaning I got done was a load of laundry, a pile of dishes and the shower I took once I had the flat to myself.

According to discussions that occurred on Monday night I'm likely to be out for a least a little while tomorrow night making a banner of sorts for someone's birthday. And Sunday night may involve mini-golf or bowling before eating at the Casino and then watching a DVD at someone's home. Hopefully I can at least bring myself to ask if people want to play my new game, it seems like one night or the other (or maybe even both) would be a good chance to get it played.
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Last night was a R18 social event, where about half of us played games and half watched "Father of the Bride II." Those of us playing games were out for around 4 hours, most of those that watched the movie left only a little later than the movie took to run. The first game was "Ticket to Ride" involving one new person playing on his own and a couple of others that got paired with people that had played previously. With five people it ended up taking almost two hours, only a little longer than it would have if we'd all been experienced I think. After packing that up we spent about 15 minutes trying to decide whether we should play Settlers or Carcassonne next and it ended up being decided (it seemed to me) more by the fact Carcassonne was already out than anything else. I remember coming very close in the game of TtR (113 point compared to the winners 117) but I don't remember as well how I did in the game of Carcassonne, I do know that I didn't win and I didn't lose. I'm happy to have played, regardless of how I did though, it was the first time we had played my new expansion, about five weeks after I purchased it.

I have five more days of 'normality' and then I'm spending Friday night on a friends couch so we can both be picked up early on Saturday morning before heading to the airport by 5am. On Saturday I will need to be at the airport earlier than I wake up for work through the week. I have been feeling the effects of that impending travel more over the weekend, as I was getting home last night I started feeling ill and I spent much of this afternoon the same way. I think it even affected my sleep this morning, I wasn't properly awake until the alarm went off telling me it was time to start getting ready to leave for church and had been drifting in and out of consciousness for I don't know how long.

How do you say goodbye to someone that you don't even see anymore? I haven't talked to someone for a few months now and realise the relationship is over, probably for ever. I want to make it clear that I'm willing to be friends again but won't be making the first move. It seems just a bit to ironic that I contact someone saying I won't be contacting them again.
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I've spent quite a bit of the past three days dealing with TradeMe again. And I'm not spending any money (probably). As an attempt to raise a little money for Hillsong, which is now a week and a half away, a number of things are being put up for auction, some more valuable than others. As I'm the one with lots of free time and a fast internet connection (and I did volunteer) it's been left to me to put things up and so I've been slowly going through the pictures that have been taken and working out where they'd best be put and how to describe them.

My 101 in 1001 list will be uploaded on Thursday (I only need 2 more items), with a backdated (foredated?) entry of 18 March 2010. That will make it the first entry random visitors to my LJ see which isn't quite what I want but it seems to make sense for me. When I'm hopefully going to be editing it reasonably often with completed goals over the nearly 2.75 years I want it to be easily found. I have barely had to copy other peoples goal to get my list long enough, most of it has come from momentary realisations of things I want to do, but was unlikely to do spontaneously.

After R18 last night, which was a slightly bigger group than has been showing up (8 in total instead of 6), four of us played a game of Cities & Knights. Not the wisest move when we weren't able to start until after 9 and four player games take longer than the three player games that have been taking us 90 minutes or so. I got home at about 11:30. I managed to get from last to second on one of my last couple of turns though, that was good.

The heat pump that was installed last Wednesday has been wonderful. I walked in after work on Wednesday and as soon as I started moving through the doorway from outside I could tell it was working. My room has been the one to benefit the most, apart from the lounge which it was installed in and I have not felt any need to shut my door to keep heat in since then. Even at the minimal setting of 16° it's keeping enough of the house warm that I'm happy, my flatmates may prefer it up higher but they don't seem to be making any effort to turn it up that I've noticed. Because of that I won't be going and buying a better heater than the one I have, I may even put the other away in it's box again.

Caring For Your Introvert
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Friday was about what it would normally have been, apart from a quick visit from my Father to drop off an extension cord. At that time I also gave him the present I got for him and a few books for Mum that I got from work. Apart from that I didn't really do much after work apart from sit here at my PC and watch a couple of things on TV.

Excessive detail of my weekend. )

What I should do before heading out tonight is sort out the washing that I have so that things are a little tidier, making rearranging my room less problematic when I get around to it. Currently my bed is positioned by two windows which is going to become more of a problem in the next month or so. I also think it would be good to have my PC posittioned such that sunlight only strikes the screen in the morning, when I'm not typically at home, instead of the afternoon like it currently does with open curtains.
I'm probably going to play another game or two of Cities and Knights at AsoBrain.com
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There was a small communication issue as far as how I was getting up to Hanmer Springs though which started the weekend on a slightly annoying note. Once under way though things were good, most of the attention seemed to be on the other two in the car as they asked questions of each other about stuff. I did get asked about me ex when the new guy was getting food though, something I want to talk about more with certain people but aren't willing to because of trust issues.
Once we got to Hanmer Springs we spent an hour or so just talking with those that were already there and then I got to play games. We had a game of Blokus, which wasn't a good choice in the eyes of one of us, Settlers of Catan went better though as did our game of Carcassonne.
I failed to sleep as long as I should have, even after staying in bed until it seemed to be late enough in the morning that others would be getting up soon. Once people were up we all headed into the main town and spent a while at a cafe and then walking around a little. The first of two trips to local rivers happened not long after we'd all got back to the house we were staying in and this year I not only went with everyone else I actually regretted not having taken togs. It seems possible that I'll swim next year. The only other thing I participated in was the mini-golf, during which I was doing so poorly to begin with that I changed to playing left-handed and immediately got a hole-in-one. That luck didn't last but I still had fun.
Coming back was interesting as I'm used to a slightly more sedate driving experience and there was quite bad fog for the last 30-40 minutes of our drive. I'm back to old habits again though, I'd wanted to ask a question since the night before and never got around to it.
Back in the city we ended up at a going away party for a soon to be police officer and apart from a somewhat unusual last hour that was good fun, especially as I was quite sober and most of the others weren't.

Early on Sunday morning I got up, got dressed and headed to the bus stop nearest me on Riccarton Road so as to get into the central city early enough to meet friends where we had agreed to meet. I wasn't up early enough however as there aren't many buses running at that time of day. I still got to meet up with everyone before the City to Surf was due to begin, other issues ended up delaying our start however and so the two ladies and myself were among the last to begin. We made good time for most of the course however, passing people right up until the 10 km mark when one of my companions slowed down. I believe that if not for that reduction in speed and our late start I could have managed to finish the course in about 2 hours, as it was the time displayed as I crossed the line was 2:22:09 which still isn't bad.

As my ex's church is right near the finish line I went in after I was done walking and saw her for a little while before heading back to my flat. The rest of my day was largely alone although I did get to see one of my friends from Spreydon, because I went by her place before the service started. With none of the others showing up at the service itself I was alone and left as soon as it finished.

This recap has to end now though, my sister and brother-in-law are coming to visit soon. :D

Big entry it seems.

2007-Mar-22, Thursday 03:04 pm
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I am, once again, without internet access in my room at this flat (for about a week I think). As such I'm currently using my flatmate's PC while he is at work and don't expect to be updating again for a while. If I understand the situation correctly the wireless hub isn't seeing the router properly anymore although the other way is working, basically I can connect to our network, but not the internet.

My Baptism itself went well on Sunday and most of those I invited showed up, one of those from Spreydon didn't and I'm yet to find out why although she could easily have had work or something else. Neither did my ex or her flatmate which was somewhat disappointing although understandable. I had a bad day health wise however, throwing up shortly before the service, luckily my breakfast had consisted of a single pancake because I wasn't feeling hungry at the restaurant I'd been taken out to by friends from church. Once I actually got up to speak things were okay though, I still felt uneasy but didn't lose my voice at all and nor did I feel as though my tongue was swelling up. What was even better was the somewhat unintentional laughs I got from a few people, mainly my friends.

This weekend I will be at the annual R18 Hanmer Springs trip, until Saturday evening, when I'm returning to the city so I can walk the City-to-Surf with a couple of friends from Spreydon Baptist. Before I return I am hoping to play at least one game of Blokus, which was my birthday present from my parents and a few games of Carcassonne. I may even go outside and play mini-golf or visit a river or something. Maybe.

I did work three days last week like I expected, and so far it seems that I'll manage five this week, something I'm not all that keen to do regularly. Although, if I do get taken on as a PMP casual instead of a Drake casual I may end up working more often because things should be sorted better as far as scheduling is concerned. I've been told by a few of the permanent staff that I should see about being taken on as one of the casual employees of the place I work at instead of the temp agency I currently get work through. If I do that there will be a pay rise (although some of that is the upcoming increase to minimum wage), and theoretically less cases of miscommunication but not much else will change apparently. I will still be able to take days off when I want and I'll still be one of the first to lose shifts if there isn't enough work, but more money would be good as would the somewhat increased certainty of work. I expect there would be something in the contract about staying for a certain length of time though as they'll apparently have to 'buy' me from the temp agency.

Once I'm done here I'll be heading back to my room to watch the last episodes of the fourth season of DS9. Or, I may cook first and then watch DVDs. For the past week or so I've been cooking sometime between 3 and 4 in the afternoon and not buying lunch at work. If it's causing any trouble I haven't noticed yet (the possible weight loss can easily be attributed to feeling ill most of Sunday and Monday).

A lack of hair.

2006-Dec-11, Monday 06:55 pm
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My employer has for some reason decided to give the casual employees at PMP (and probably those elsewhere) cooler bags which apart from the Drake Logo emblazoned upon them seem like decent bags. Fittingly enough, the drink bottle they gave out I don't know how long ago fits quite well in a side pocket apart from being a little tall, but, the bottle itself doesn't really stay closed so I don't use it.

Donations for my head shaving have reached $296 cash, with the $25 I was given on line that means I have reached more than $300 worth of sponsorship after starting out thinking that I might, maybe, somehow manage to get $100. After four days I am still getting used to not having hair when I go to put ear plugs in at work or put one of my hats on. If I do this again next year, which I may not be 'allowed' to (and that will be fine as well), I will have to force myself to go and ask more people to sponsor me. Most of those that have sponsored me at work were asked, or at least informed, by one specific person. Church was far easier, I simply went up the front and told the whole lot of them what I was going to do at an appropriate point in the service and then waited after the service for people to come to me. That could also be improved upon I suppose but I've done quite well there.

On Friday afternoon I attended a funeral for the father of a close friend and felt completely out of place almost the entire time I was there. Having met him less than half a dozen times made me feel like an intruder and dealing with the obvious loss of my friend left me feeling completely inept.

I'm heading off to a R18 meeting now, the first of our small group meetings for quite some time.


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